THERAPY

yes, i am here:)

2011-10-06T02:20:00.005+08:00

okay, it is REALLY going to come to an end.
8weeks of intense learning, immense growth, and subtle adaptation.
WHOA.
i still cant believe i am here, wahaha.
"i am not worried about you or your clients"
and and and, yes, it will be KKH:D
AHHH. i am so excited:D
He is in control!
i am so going to weep at the end of this placement:'( and 依依不舍...
thankyou, all you little (and big) ones for teaching me so so much, accepting me, letting me have a little peek into your world<3
you will always be in my prayers.

i am HERE:)

2011-09-24T00:15:00.004+08:00

i still cannot believe i am HERE:)
awesome experience that is coming to a closure soon:'(
dreaded, almost hated it at some point (草莓族). but settled down well and hoping it will never end.
i want to grow old with the kids!
rly hope this is part of the picture and that everythng will fall in place. excited!

this is it

2011-07-14T01:23:00.002+08:00

KKH:D
thankyou for answering my prayer so instanteously, and giving me the confirmation through my parents. You know i need the security and assurance.
<3 parents' reminder and coverage: 我们为你祷告，你自己也要祷告，选择神要你服侍的医院。

crystal clear

2011-07-03T19:38:00.004+08:00

dream rekindled, a timely reminder and revelation
to become an OT without borders
training and learning ground, CE3B
used to whine and whine that i have never went on overseas community trip. but the upcoming one is really a great 8weeks of immersion for me.
i have to remember, why i want to join the healthcare system, what am i working towards to. however also to be ready to adapt, to embrace, as my dream become sharper and become more shaped.
thank God:) Lord, if this is it, bring it on.
and i am excited:D

why

2011-04-19T20:38:00.004+08:00

i dont know why is it so dreadful though i really like and enjoy this placement
i think i have really learnt the avoidant behaviour:S

itchy

2011-04-04T22:35:00.004+08:00

i dont like routines. i need to eat, cycle, rollerblade, swim, watchdrama, shop, bake

hair management

2011-03-07T00:56:00.003+08:00

prior to STG 1: Client must be willing to take on a life-changing decision to grow long hair.
Rationale: so that client wont gatal-gatal want to cut hair halfway (Insyirah,2011).
STG 1: Client will be able to tolerate the irritation caused by long fringe (in time to come) for the next 8 weeks.
Rationale: This is extremely important for client to do so because such irritation has been known to cause extreme frustration for the eyes. (Insyirah, 2011).
LTG: Client will be able to tie two cute ponytails (awh!!!) at the end of 15 weeks.
Rationale: Cause xinhui looks adorable that way!! (Insyirah,2011).

up down up down up down

2011-02-15T00:25:00.007+08:00

i feel like a pendulum. swinging and swinging from one end to the other.
okay should be i feel like a ball. bouncing up and down.
scary.
the ups were really fun:) finally had a good break. i could finally breathe.
then i crashed. for a slight moment. into myself. as always.
my posts are sounding really scary.
or maybe this is just life.
oh and my dark circles need to poof immediately. it is causing me so much distress.

what's next

2011-01-31T19:34:00.005+08:00

seriously have a love hate relationship with school. started out being so enthu, posting all e "airy fairy" stuffs.
now, the posts get more and more depressing.
i still and do love what i am studying and what i will do later.
but i need a vision Lord. am i thinking what You are thinking?
it doesnt seem like it for now.

to walk on water

2011-01-31T19:34:00.002+08:00

I have never walked on water
Felt the waves beneath my feet
But at Your word Lord
I'll receive Your faith to walk on oceans deep
And I remember how You found me
In that very same place
All my failings surely would have drowned me
Still You made a way

once again Lord:) or it should be, over and over again, i want to walk on water. with You.

fangirl

2011-01-27T00:29:00.004+08:00

lin jun jie
dimples:D
i think he is the only artist i will consistently blog about
since 2003:)
lin jun jie ftw!

spiral

2011-01-24T00:57:00.004+08:00

downward spiral. there seemed to be no end to it. now it is going to, but i am looking forward it too. irony:)
i really do not foresee a time worse than this. at least my academic years. the lack of hope, the fear, the dread. but again, i never know. with clinicals and the ultimate fyp.
dry and tired. i need a renewal.
and i have to brace on.
but i know it will be worth it. and that i was never alone:)

to do: NVM2011

2011-01-24T00:55:00.002+08:00

the queer things about friendships:) yes, cui almost must do crazy stuffs especially when i am still young.

goodbye

2011-01-22T14:00:00.005+08:00

i feel like a part of me died:( never realised how these two years and the people actually mean to me till now.
goodbye my brother. i pray that in seeking, you will find your purpose. your time perhaps is up, but during this period, you have touched many hearts.
God bless:)

great

2011-01-16T20:41:00.001+08:00

i hate to submit sub standard work.
but thats all i seem to be capable of producing this semester.
great.

reckless driver

2011-01-08T13:20:00.000+08:00

driving myself crazy
but i have to just keep going

thankyous

2010-12-28T22:25:00.000+08:00

thankyou dad for the prayer:) and thankyou Dad:)

holidays

2010-12-22T22:48:00.002+08:00

did not get to go on road trip to m'sia in the end:( but its good. i need the time to do work! there are 101 things to do, for deadlines that still seem so far away yet threatening. i get stressed when people ask me out, leaving me with lesser and lesser time to work. then again, i need the break. but with this internal tension going on, i cannot really enjoy my holiday. as much as i want this semester to be over soon, i dont it to end so quickly too. last friday was year 3s last day of school. i will feel so sad next year that time. i love (and detest) school(work).

sighs

2010-12-13T21:40:00.004+08:00

i hate it when i dont see hope. hope is such a crucial element in life. it keeps one going. i have sort of lost it once. and, it. is. scary.
maybe i am secretly a pessimistic.
a day of sighs.

learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow- albert einstein

the best

2010-12-12T23:07:00.003+08:00

you guys are the best thing that has happened in my life:) yes, i think we can go on (forever) doing reminiscenece therapy and playing games that are for 10years and below.

God bless

2010-12-06T23:36:00.004+08:00

14years old. isnt it too young?
i last saw you when you were 9years old. just 5years seems not long ago. i can still remember your tanness, your smile, your blur expression on your face, your smallness then. you were barely up to my shoulder.
i still cannot believe it. i wished i had prayed more. i wish i had spent more time with you all.
i wish.., i wish...
you all will always be a very special bunch in my heart. i believe you all had sparked something in my young heart then.
God bless your family.

past

2010-11-29T23:26:00.003+08:00

it was painful to read. it is really as per described. just spelt out in words.
but i have walked out of it. residual effects, perhaps.
by for sure, the bond is broken, an i am cleansed and renewed by Him.

whine no more

2010-11-26T23:10:00.004+08:00

i realised i have stopped whining. good:D
had gotten into the flow of thing rather quickly for this semster. thank God! but that do not mean i am managing my 6projects, 4assignments well. and the laptop is going to be my best friend. tsk, i just whined. but it has been good thus far.
JAPAN! was great:D
i still wish things will magically become good. i need to put in the efforts. its worth it, i know. spirit is willing, flesh is weak. when will it be ever "right"?

role conflict

2010-08-12T00:29:00.002+08:00

role conflicts- that's the sociological term for it(s).
school- that's the excuse for it(s).
the real reason? i think i know it(s) better.
and am i going to do something about it(s)? yes.
how? let me think about it.

treat for the eye

2010-08-09T23:46:00.001+08:00

Joseph Gordon-Levitt

needs

2010-08-02T13:42:00.002+08:00

i need to eat good food, have a good sweat under the sun, read a good book, watch some good films and ~~window~~shop as a feast for my senses. thats all.
i need to survive 5 more days and 3 weeks of bliss ~~and studying for exams~~.
at least report is down, the 2000words that made me stay up straight till 6am. another record.

resilience

2010-07-30T00:28:00.003+08:00

this is my ultimate record. for school, i left the house at 8am reached home at 12am.
one last week. i have become more resilient:)
i am so going to give myself a holiday, from 7-9aug.
thank you Lord, for sustaining me through with Your peace and joy.

to impress

2010-07-12T22:54:00.004+08:00

i guess i do not need to impress you or in fact anybody:) it's a relief, once i have had that mentality cleared.
only You.
technically only 4 more ~~difficult~~ weeks of school to go. press on.

wait

2010-07-05T23:48:00.002+08:00

waiting for tomorrow to be over, so that i can start planning for my lovely japan ~~trip~~ clinical. some things are worth waiting for. waited for one year, but God is kind, and granted me the opportunity to go, again. cant wait!

He can

2010-06-27T00:02:00.002+08:00

it is not whether i can or i cannot. it is He can.

lethal

2010-06-17T20:33:00.004+08:00

you realise how lethal your thought are when you let them sink in.
yes, i do entail to the cognitive school of thought.

flooding

2010-06-11T22:59:00.003+08:00

every friday seems like a flooding session. i thought i was desensiitizated. perhaps i am not.
there is still a lot work to do! two weeks of holidays.

good old time

2010-06-07T23:42:00.002+08:00

the good old days which were not that long ago.
I think he's cute as in err..cute but not the like very handsome, gd looking type like taiwanese actors (Liew,2009).
my next placement?:)

hippo city tour

2010-06-05T21:08:00.004+08:00

went ont the hippo city tour once again and for free:D love it! the last time was on my 18th birthday. it is the same tour (with slight changes), same level of excitement though with different groups of friends. what struck me was the difference in my thoughts, what runs through my mind when i am on the "topless bus" as i call it. circumstances has changed so much!

photos that say a thousand words

2010-06-05T00:30:00.006+08:00

nostalgic.
college days were not that bad after all.
us trio
good pw groupmates
fellow japanese crazy
the one who kept me sane during the transition from tj to vj
secondary school mates
primary school mate
studying buddies
sweet juniors
God is good:)

walk on

2010-06-03T00:32:00.006+08:00

i am tired.
why are there vultures. sometimes i really feel like the carcasses.
still, thankyou to yous.
many reflections and self-questioning. how far am i willing to go? and for who and what. and why am i where i am now?
two taps; "walk on".

ironic

2010-05-29T21:18:00.003+08:00

it is ironic that it takes a death for people to gather together. but i guess it shows who really cares. it's my fifth (close) friend who dad passed away. somehow it always impact me emotionally, more than i expect to. and i always wonder why.
it is going to be holidays soon, hanging on till then. and i know You will keep me till then.

still

2010-05-18T01:18:00.003+08:00

i will be still and know you are God.
i want to realign myself again, and give my best shot at my respective roles. and i will keep trying.
the past is catching up on me again. thank you(s) to those who are trying to pry open my heart gently. i appreciate it. i believe i will get there, one day.
PEPPERmint is still looking sad, probably will transfer hydopronics. i killed WAGON the melon, decapitated it. SNOWBALL/ SNOWFLAKE the sunflower is sprouting! yet-to-be-named basil and bluepea are hibernating.

The Knots Prayer

2010-05-14T23:05:00.001+08:00

Dear God :

Please untie the knots that are in my mind ,
my heart my life.

Remove the have nots ,
the can nots and the do nots
that I have in my mind

Erase all the will nots ,
might nots
that may find a home in my heart .

Release me from the could nots
would nots
that obstruct my life .

And most of all
Dear God ;
I ask that you remove from my mind ,
my heart and my life
all the “ am nots”
that I have allowed to hold me back ,
especially the thought,
that I am not good enough

Author Known to God

cartoon heros

2010-05-08T00:11:00.001+08:00

Our lives are led in a monotonous rhythm, where each day differs from no other.

The past, present, and future, mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present.

They say that time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself.

Our inner potential lies dormant only waiting to be unleashed. Once the spark is ignited, boundless possibilities awaits, only to begin a new chapter.

The important thing is: To be able at any moment to sacrifice what we are for what we could become.

Who is the hero and who is the one in distress? Are we that different?

hakuna matata

2010-05-05T00:07:00.008+08:00

so the new cycle begins.
i am still sane, thank God:) i have some concerns and doubts, but let's see how it goes.
i need to be well rooted.
i hope PEPPER grows well! it's looking quite sad now.
the university people are (some, but not all) out:D i still detest the clash of our timetables.
the (lifelong) retainers are irritating me.
~hakuna matata

一之 (乏)

2010-04-05T13:55:00.000+08:00

help!

2010-01-14T23:09:00.003+08:00

oh my goodness, six more weeks of school only. chiong, ren, tahan, ganjiong, cui.
i need to survive till 24feb.

in advance

2010-01-11T00:06:00.004+08:00

my sleeping cycle has screwed:( and i dont like it.
the bicycle has arrived, its time to feel the wind in my hair agin:)
filling my bucket, before it starts to empty.

disappearance

2010-01-08T02:03:00.003+08:00

you make me disappear. soon you will be disappearing. it will be time for me to break away. finally.

2010

2010-01-02T19:32:00.008+08:00

*ps we no longer basket weave!

i havent had time to think about 2009. actually i had the time, its just that chronologically, i still feel like its sometime in oct/ nov? because of the time the school term started><

i think the most significant thanksgiving i have is that i am where i am now:) love what i am doing, surrounded by lovely people, and loving people.

i have whined about this before, but i am still going to say that i am not exactly looking forward to school though. will be swamped by lectures, clinical diaries, projects, ICAs, assignment, exams. will be a tough 8 weeks. go go go!

hongkong was great:) i miss the food!

Welcome to Holland

2009-12-16T00:04:00.003+08:00

by Emily Perl Kingsley

I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability - to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It's like this......

When you're going to have a baby, it's like planning a fabulous vacation trip - to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It's all very exciting.

After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, "Welcome to Holland."

"Holland?!?" you say. "What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I'm supposed to be in Italy. All my life I've dreamed of going to Italy."

But there's been a change in the flight plan. They've landed in Holland and there you must stay.

The important thing is that they haven't taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It's just a different place.

So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.

It's just a different place. It's slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you've been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around.... and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills....and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.

But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy... and they're all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say "Yes, that's where I was supposed to go. That's what I had planned."

And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away... because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss.

But... if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn't get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things ... about Holland.

freed

2009-12-15T23:41:00.003+08:00

the holidays are finally here again:) i kind of dread school after this short two weeks break. CLINICALS, projects, assignment, test, exams. still, i am excited to find out my community setting!

i cannot wait to get my hands on a new camera and phone. i miss photography. gosh, it has been such a pity that there were some beautiful scenery in front of me yet i dont have a phone with decent camera function since the my-bag-got-stolen-in-koufu-but-my-bag-was-found-in-the-male-toilet-and-all-was-intact-but-my-phone-was-missing incident.
thank God, the first half of the semester has been still manageable and good:) ogbb been quite a success! lolx.

see you soon

2009-12-02T23:07:00.004+08:00

it is good to hear you say "damn long nv hear all these kinda stuff frm ya le=)" see you soon, my primary school buddy. i am happy for you, all grown up!
clinical education 1a ended. i am majorly overjoyed:D
survived the minor crisis of events-happening-all-at-one-go-overloaded, things went well. praise God!
GLS was great. reenergized and recharged. my vision? to be revealed:)

therapy

2009-11-23T22:43:00.004+08:00

sooner or later, this sign will get me into trouble.

there has been raven incidents, again. too much noise. i dont not need this now. but i guess this is what i asked for. so yes, with God, impossible is nothing!

i have started blogging now and then again. perhaps it is therapeutic for me. to pour my woes to the virtual world.

i love noah's ark:)

just a little

2009-11-20T00:30:00.006+08:00

i need a little push. i am getting unmotivated as work piles on. perhaps a little excitement will do. to get me out of where i am stuck right now.
God is the strength of my heart, and my portion forever.

idealisation

2009-11-13T23:12:00.006+08:00

reality really sucks. i guess i have to lower my unrealistic expectations. welcome back to earth!
and i have to deal with it for four years. maybe it is time for a revolution.
ps; i miss my primary school buddy.

L-O-V-E

2009-10-26T00:49:00.006+08:00

Love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love
There's nothing you can do that can't be done
Nothing you can sing that can't be sung
Nothing you can say but you can learn how to play the game
It's easy
There's nothing you can make that can't be made
No one you can save that can't be saved
Nothing you can do but you can learn how to be in time
It's easy
All you need is love, all you need is love,
All you need is love, love, love is all you need
Love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love
All you need is love, all you need is love,
All you need is love, love, love is all you need
There's nothing you can know that isn't known
Nothing you can see that isn't shown
Nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be
It's easy
All you
need is love, all you need is love,
All you need is love, love, love is all you need
All you need is love (all together now)
All you need is love (everybody)
All you need is love, love, love is all you need

"All You Need Is Love", The Beatles

best holidays

2009-10-18T21:56:00.004+08:00

DONE:
curious case of benjamin buttons
slumdog millionaire
picnic, erm, at SMU
tuesday with morrie
sing K
singapore association for the visually handicapped
alexendra hospital
changi airport, popeyes
cycling, east coast, ajisen
G force
departures
hard candy
autism association
coco before chanel
hip hop
holland v, wala wala
kite runner
ikea, meatballs chicken wings, gelare
kite runner, movie
cooking, pasta, soup muay thai
picnic at barrage
cartel
9
time traveler's wife, movie
mobile dental clinic
time traveler's wife
NTU hostel
geriatrics sig
my sister's keeper
tampines 1 rooftop
orientation and mobility
dining in the dark
picnic at barrage
project 123
thai express
sing k
vjc open house
with a pinch of salt
crispian and cheryl's wedding
one love awakening conference
student mentorship camp
hairloom and caramel, 500 days of summer, neoprints
breeks, blood donation
swesen's, cartel
peranakan museum, national museum, fort canning, battle box, rom
deepavali

YET TO DO:
eat donut
fly kite
pottery
ice skate
roller blade
swim
learn guitar

declaration

2009-10-09T11:42:00.000+08:00

"Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved—you and your household." Acts 16:31

technology

2009-10-05T00:25:00.003+08:00

i really dont like texts or online messaging.
no tone, facial expression, body language. pisses off and upsets me easily, by the way i interpret the words. it is the countless time already.
also, sometimes it allows me to become an alternative person. is that hypocritical?
give me the real person, please. both the yous and me.

His grace

2009-09-23T12:00:00.005+08:00

introduction to psychology dist
introduction to sociology a
human anatomy 1a b
human physiology 1a a
occupational therapy theory & process 1a dist
human occupations 1a c+
professional image & etiquette a

The Kite Runner

2009-09-15T11:10:00.004+08:00

That was a long time ago, but it’s wrong what they say about the past, I’ve learned, about how you can bury it. Because the past claws its way out.
Then he would remind us that there was a brotherhood between people who had fed from the same breast, a kinship that not even time could break.
Hassan and I fed from the same breasts. We took our first steps on the same lawn in the same yard. And, under the same roof, we spoke our first words.
Mine was Baba.
His was Amir. My name.
Looking back on it now, I think the foundation for what happened in the winter of 1975 and all that followed was already laid in those first words.
But coming close wasn't the same as winning, was it? ... He had won because winners won and everyone else just went home.
For you, a thousand times over.
I wondered if that was how forgiveness budded, not with the fanfare of epiphany, but with pain gathering its things, packing up, and slipping away unannounced in the middle of the night.
Quiet is peace. Tranquility. Quiet is turning down the volume knob on life. Silence is pushing the off button. Shutting it down. All of it.

Soiree 2008: OT0702

2009-09-09T00:35:00.004+08:00

Ooooooh~

Future OTs we've pledged to be
We pledge to help our community
I really wonder if we'll ever be
Considering that we're so naughty

The crazy plans that we always make,
Never seem to impress anyone
Finding faults in our own mistakes
Remembering that way is much more fun

Watching learning, trying to find some meaning
Caring helping makes it so fulfilling
Watching learning trying to find some meaning
Slowly surely some day we'll be ready

PBL makes me stay up late
Mobility definitely lays my fate
BSM makes my heart palpate
Behavioral mod tries to change the things I hate

Sorry to say but physio makes me sleep
So deep I didn't feel my handphone beep
But I have friends to keep me awake
Reminding me that my grades are at stake

Watching learning, trying to find some meaning
Caring helping makes it so fulfilling
Watching learning trying to find some meaning
Slowly surely some day we'll be ready

OT is here to sing for you this song
Now everybody try to sing along, clap along
Ya'll listen to these words that's coming from our tongue
Its something you can relate to and laugh along ya'll

After JC I joined OT in NYP
I've been looked down by everybody
They ask me why I didn't go to the uni
They judge me as someone who cant make it

I didn't care I proceed to poly
And each days pass I feel much more happy
‘Cos wat I learn gave me so much meaning
Give me the drive to carry on my learning

Whenever you feel stressed and feeling down
Recall what OT’s gonna tell u now
This is my hakuna matata remix
Come on everybody now sing it with me

Shee pap pee doop...Pee doobie wan too...

Watching learning, trying to find some meaning
Caring helping makes it so fulfilling
Watching learning trying to find some meaning
Slowly surely some day we'll be ready

Tuesdays With Morrie

2009-08-31T14:20:00.006+08:00

So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning. -p.43
The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in. -p.52
"...you closed your eyes. That was the difference. Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too - even when you’re in the dark. Even when you’re falling." - p.61
“What I’m doing now is detaching myself from the experience.”
Detaching yourself?
“Yes. Detaching yourself. And this is important - not just for someone like me, who is dying, but for someone like you, who is perfectly healthy. Learn to detach.”
…
But wait, I said. Aren’t you always talking about experiencing life? All the good emotions, all the bad ones?
“Yes.”
Well, how can you do that if you’re detached?
“… detachment doesn’t mean you don’t let the experience penetrate you. On the contrary, you let it penetrate you fully. That’s how you are able to leave it."
…
"Take any emotion - love for a woman, or grief for a loved one…. if you hold back on the emotions - if you don’t allow yourself to go all the way through them - you can never get to being detached, you’re too busy being afraid. You’re afraid of the pain, you’re afraid of the grief. You’re afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails.
But by throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way, over your head even, you experience them fully and completely. You know what pain is. You know what love is. You know what grief is. … I have experienced that emotion. I recognize that emotion. Now I need to detach from that emotion for a moment.”
…
“Same for loneliness: you let go, let the tears flow, feel it completely - but eventually be able to say, ‘All right, that was my moment with loneliness. I’m not afraid of feeling lonely, but now I’m going to put that loneliness aside and know that there are other emotions in the world, and I’m going to experience them as well.” -p.104
[Morrie worked at a mental hospital, describing his experience with a patient]
One of the patients, a middle-aged woman, came out of her room every day and lay facedown on the tile floor, stayed there for hours, as doctors and nurses stepped around her. Morrie watched in horror. He took notes, which is what he was there to do. Every day, she did the same thing [on the floor, ignoring everyone]. [Morrie] began to sit on the floor with her, even lay down alongside her, trying to draw her out of her misery. Eventually, he got her to sit up and even return to her room. What she mostly wanted, he learned, was the same thing many people want - someone to notice she was there. - p.110
"As you grow old, you learn more. If you stayed at twenty-two, you'd always be as ignorant as you were at twenty-two. Aging is not just decay, you know. It's growth. It's more than the negative that you're going to die, its also the positive that you understand you're going to die, and that you live a better life because of it." - p.118
Yes, I said, but if aging were so valuable, why do people alwas say, Oh, if I were young again. You never hear people say, I wish I were sixty-five.
He smiled. “You know what that reflects? Unsatisfied lives. Unfulfilled lives. Lives that haven’t found meaning. because if you’ve found meaning in your life, you don’t want to go back. You want to go forward. You want to see more, do more. You can’t wait until sixty-five." - p.119
"… We also need to forgive ourselves.”
Ourselves?
“Yes. For all the things we didn’t do. All the things we should have done. You can’t get stuck on the regrets of what should have happened. That doesn’t help you when you get to where I am. I always wished I had done more with my work; I wished I had written more books. I used to beat myself up over it. Now I see that never did any good. Make peace. You need to make peace with yourself and everyone around you.” - p.167
"Death ends a life, not a relationship." -pg 174

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

2009-08-31T00:17:00.007+08:00

Mrs Maple- Benjamin, we're meant to lose the people we love. How else would we know how important they are to us?
Mr Daws- Did I ever tell you I been struck by lightning seven times? Once when I was repairing a leak on the roof. Once I was just crossing the road to get the mail. Once, I was walking my dog down the road. Blinded in one eye; can't hardly hear. I get twitches and shakes out of nowhere; always losing my line of thought. But you know what? God keeps reminding me I'm lucky to be alive. Storm's comin'.
Benjamin Button- Our lives are defined by opportunities, even the ones we miss.
Benjamin Button- It's a funny thing about comin' home. Looks the same, smells the same, feels the same. You'll realize what's changed is you.
Benjamin Button- For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.
Benjamin Button- Along the way you bump into people who make a dent on your life. Some people get struck by lightning. Some are born to sit by a river. Some have an ear for music. Some are artists. Some swim the English Channel. Some know buttons. Some know Shakespeare. Some are mothers. And some people can dance.

The Kawa Model

2009-06-12T01:48:00.002+08:00

Kawa
Mizu
Torimaki
Iwa
Ryuboku
Sukima

Occupational Therapist’s Prayer

2009-06-09T00:32:00.003+08:00

Dear Heavenly Father,
Thank you for the gift of my profession.
Thank you for my education and training.
Thank you for the daily strength to address the challenges of disability and despair.
Thank you for the joy I feel in watching my clients progress toward independence.
Thank You for being my Advisor when I creatively solve a problem.
Thank You for the gift of Your Son Jesus Christ and my salvation.
Grant me the wisdom to understand my clients and fellow workers.
Grant me the patience to wait for Your healing of the whole person.
Grant me the opportunity to witness my love for You Through my lifestyle and my daily work.
Grant me the fellowship of other therapists that know and love You.
Grant me the humility to work as a team player with other professionals for the good of those we serve.
Grant me the peace that comes through knowing You during these turbulent times of change .
Cover me in the precious protective blood of Jesus on a daily basis.
In Christ Jesus I pray.
Amen.

independent living movement

2009-06-01T22:53:00.003+08:00

members of independent living movement (a movement by and for people with disabilities designed to improve their life opportunities) view disability not as residing within people but, rather, as a primary deficit in the environment which limits their capability.

"Crabbit Old Woman"

2009-05-10T06:33:00.002+08:00

What do you see, what do you see?
Are you thinking, when you look at me-
A crabbit old woman, not very wise,
Uncertain of habit, with far-away eyes,
Who dribbles her food and makes no reply
When you say in a loud voice,
I do wish you'd try.
Who seems not to notice the things that you do
And forever is loosing a stocking or shoe.
Who, unresisting or not; lets you do as you will
With bathing and feeding the long day is fill.
Is that what you're thinking,
Is that what you see?
Then open your eyes,
nurse, you're looking at me.
I'll tell you who I am as I sit here so still!
As I rise at your bidding, as I eat at your will.
I'm a small child of 10 with a father and mother,
Brothers and sisters, who loved one another-
A young girl of 16 with wings on her feet,
Dreaming that soon now a lover she'll meet,
A bride soon at 20- my heart gives a leap,
Remembering the vows that I promised to keep.
At 25 now I have young of my own
Who need me to build a secure happy home;
A woman of 30, my young now grow fast,
Bound to each other with ties that should last;
At 40, my young sons have grown and are gone,
But my man's beside me to see I don't mourn;
At 50 once more babies play around my knee,
Again we know children, my loved one and me.
Dark days are upon me, my husband is dead,
I look at the future, I shudder with dread,
For my young are all rearing young of their own.
And I think of the years and the love that I've known;
I'm an old woman now and nature is cruel-
Tis her jest to make old age look like a fool.
The body is crumbled, grace and vigor depart,
There is now a stone where I once had a heart,
But inside this old carcass, a young girl still dwells,
And now and again my battered heart swells,
I remember the joy, I remember the pain,
And I'm loving and living life over again.
I think of the years all too few- gone too fast.
And accept the stark fact that nothing can last-
So open your eyes, nurse, open and see,
Not a crabbit old woman, look closer-
See Me.