thankyous

thankyou dad for the prayer:) and thankyou Dad:)

holidays

did not get to go on road trip to m'sia in the end:( but its good. i need the time to do work! there are 101 things to do, for deadlines that still seem so far away yet threatening. i get stressed when people ask me out, leaving me with lesser and lesser time to work. then again, i need the break. but with this internal tension going on, i cannot really enjoy my holiday. as much as i want this semester to be over soon, i dont it to end so quickly too. last friday was year 3s last day of school. i will feel so sad next year that time. i love (and detest) school(work).

sighs

i hate it when i dont see hope. hope is such a crucial element in life. it keeps one going. i have sort of lost it once. and, it. is. scary.
maybe i am secretly a pessimistic.
a day of sighs.

learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow- albert einstein

the best

you guys are the best thing that has happened in my life:) yes, i think we can go on (forever) doing reminiscenece therapy and playing games that are for 10years and below.

God bless

14years old. isnt it too young?
i last saw you when you were 9years old. just 5years seems not long ago. i can still remember your tanness, your smile, your blur expression on your face, your smallness then. you were barely up to my shoulder.
i still cannot believe it. i wished i had prayed more. i wish i had spent more time with you all.
i wish.., i wish...
you all will always be a very special bunch in my heart. i believe you all had sparked something in my young heart then.
God bless your family.

past

it was painful to read. it is really as per described. just spelt out in words.
but i have walked out of it. residual effects, perhaps.
by for sure, the bond is broken, an i am cleansed and renewed by Him.

whine no more

i realised i have stopped whining. good:D
had gotten into the flow of thing rather quickly for this semster. thank God! but that do not mean i am managing my 6projects, 4assignments well. and the laptop is going to be my best friend. tsk, i just whined. but it has been good thus far.
JAPAN! was great:D
i still wish things will magically become good. i need to put in the efforts. its worth it, i know. spirit is willing, flesh is weak. when will it be ever "right"?

role conflict

role conflicts- that's the sociological term for it(s).
school- that's the excuse for it(s).
the real reason? i think i know it(s) better.
and am i going to do something about it(s)? yes.
how? let me think about it.

treat for the eye

Joseph Gordon-Levitt

needs

i need to eat good food, have a good sweat under the sun, read a good book, watch some good films and windowshop as a feast for my senses. thats all.
i need to survive 5 more days and 3 weeks of bliss and studying for exams.
at least report is down, the 2000words that made me stay up straight till 6am. another record.

resilience

this is my ultimate record. for school, i left the house at 8am reached home at 12am.
one last week. i have become more resilient:)
i am so going to give myself a holiday, from 7-9aug.
thank you Lord, for sustaining me through with Your peace and joy.

to impress

i guess i do not need to impress you or in fact anybody:) it's a relief, once i have had that mentality cleared.
only You.
technically only 4 more difficult weeks of school to go. press on.

wait

waiting for tomorrow to be over, so that i can start planning for my lovely japan trip clinical. some things are worth waiting for. waited for one year, but God is kind, and granted me the opportunity to go, again. cant wait!

He can

it is not whether i can or i cannot. it is He can.

lethal

you realise how lethal your thought are when you let them sink in.
yes, i do entail to the cognitive school of thought.

flooding

every friday seems like a flooding session. i thought i was desensiitizated. perhaps i am not.
there is still a lot work to do! two weeks of holidays.

good old time

the good old days which were not that long ago.
I think he's cute as in err..cute but not the like very handsome, gd looking type like taiwanese actors (Liew,2009).
my next placement?:)

hippo city tour

went ont the hippo city tour once again and for free:D love it! the last time was on my 18th birthday. it is the same tour (with slight changes), same level of excitement though with different groups of friends. what struck me was the difference in my thoughts, what runs through my mind when i am on the "topless bus" as i call it. circumstances has changed so much!

photos that say a thousand words

nostalgic.
college days were not that bad after all.
us trio
good pw groupmates
fellow japanese crazy
the one who kept me sane during the transition from tj to vj
secondary school mates
primary school mate
studying buddies
sweet juniors
God is good:)

walk on

i am tired.
why are there vultures. sometimes i really feel like the carcasses.
still, thankyou to yous.
many reflections and self-questioning. how far am i willing to go? and for who and what. and why am i where i am now?
two taps; "walk on".

ironic

it is ironic that it takes a death for people to gather together. but i guess it shows who really cares. it's my fifth (close) friend who dad passed away. somehow it always impact me emotionally, more than i expect to. and i always wonder why.
it is going to be holidays soon, hanging on till then. and i know You will keep me till then.

still

i will be still and know you are God.
i want to realign myself again, and give my best shot at my respective roles. and i will keep trying.
the past is catching up on me again. thank you(s) to those who are trying to pry open my heart gently. i appreciate it. i believe i will get there, one day.
PEPPERmint is still looking sad, probably will transfer hydopronics. i killed WAGON the melon, decapitated it. SNOWBALL/ SNOWFLAKE the sunflower is sprouting! yet-to-be-named basil and bluepea are hibernating.

The Knots Prayer

Dear God :

Please untie the knots that are in my mind ,
my heart my life.

Remove the have nots ,
the can nots and the do nots
that I have in my mind

Erase all the will nots ,
might nots
that may find a home in my heart .

Release me from the could nots
would nots
that obstruct my life .

And most of all
Dear God ;
I ask that you remove from my mind ,
my heart and my life
all the “ am nots”
that I have allowed to hold me back ,
especially the thought,
that I am not good enough

Author Known to God

cartoon heros

Our lives are led in a monotonous rhythm, where each day differs from no other.

The past, present, and future, mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present.

They say that time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself.

Our inner potential lies dormant only waiting to be unleashed. Once the spark is ignited, boundless possibilities awaits, only to begin a new chapter.

The important thing is: To be able at any moment to sacrifice what we are for what we could become.

Who is the hero and who is the one in distress? Are we that different?

hakuna matata

so the new cycle begins.
i am still sane, thank God:) i have some concerns and doubts, but let's see how it goes.
i need to be well rooted.
i hope PEPPER grows well! it's looking quite sad now.
the university people are (some, but not all) out:D i still detest the clash of our timetables.
the (lifelong) retainers are irritating me.
~hakuna matata

一之 (乏)

help!

oh my goodness, six more weeks of school only. chiong, ren, tahan, ganjiong, cui.
i need to survive till 24feb.

in advance

my sleeping cycle has screwed:( and i dont like it.
the bicycle has arrived, its time to feel the wind in my hair agin:)
filling my bucket, before it starts to empty.

disappearance

you make me disappear. soon you will be disappearing. it will be time for me to break away. finally.

2010

*ps we no longer basket weave!

i havent had time to think about 2009. actually i had the time, its just that chronologically, i still feel like its sometime in oct/ nov? because of the time the school term started><

i think the most significant thanksgiving i have is that i am where i am now:) love what i am doing, surrounded by lovely people, and loving people.

i have whined about this before, but i am still going to say that i am not exactly looking forward to school though. will be swamped by lectures, clinical diaries, projects, ICAs, assignment, exams. will be a tough 8 weeks. go go go!

hongkong was great:) i miss the food!